when will my reflection show who im inside.

whats there inside me.

07 April 2008

Finally is time to lay my hands onto the keyboard and start blogging..
I just don know why ppl keep askin mi to update when they know tat i cant..
Is my speaking too ponderful or they are just deaf..
Sorry to say that...
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Things are happening..
Tears are like free-flow..
Friends are like don bother..
Family doesnt even know..
What more could i do..
You say, u would be by my side all the way..
But where are you now..when i need you most..
You say, you're just a phone away from mi..
When i called u or sms u..where the hell are all the reply..?
Promise are to be broken..
You left me all by myself..
Living in a world of myself..
How much i had cried..how much i had suffered..
To you, im just been drama..
Well, well.. Thanks for all tat..
Because of all those things it had make mi even stronger..
Thank you..
I had never hate you.. I had never blame you..
All i wanted was just a "hello" is tat really hard...?
I think to you is childish or wat-so-ever
But to mi now is nth..and nth is all i wan..
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Saying bout "Drama"
I think, im more den drama..
Been "Plastic" is the real mi..
Y am i being so..
Asked myself..
My answer was "to mi there's no more things tat are real for mi to belived"
Who feel good being plastic and drama..
Ppl ask mi "are u ok?"
If i say i am.. isnt it lying to you..
If u all fcukin noe i'm nt den y fcukin still ask mi..
Do u think i wan it to..
Do u think i feel good or proud bout it..
Ppl call mi just be the real you..
But.. i cant remember how i was like before..
I really don't..
So if im plastic or being drama just let mi be ba..
Mayb it might let mi feel better..
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~~ELMO~~
Sorry i mean "EMO"
Do u think being emo is "FOC"-free of charge..
Do u think anyone like being emo..
Does anyone need to be emo to get attention or pity from others..
When i'm emo..i try to be happy..
=ppl say i'm fake,plastic,drama or blah blah blah=
When im happy..
=ppl ask "eh u okai ma? are u plastic to mi or blah blah"=
Tua peh gong..WOuld u be kind enough to tell mi wat to do..
Cant u all tell being plastic,drama or emo ma..
Must i tell u all which mode im switch to ma when we meet everytime..
Really don noe..
The next person who ask mi " im gng to slap him/her with my dick"
=ops i cant say tat..=
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By the way im really sick with ppl like u
You have such a nice name..
But you're such a chee bye..
I wonder when ur parent having sex did they do their best ma..
If not u wont be like tat le..
I feel sad for u..really =drama=
Don talk cock sing song in front of mi la when u onli have chee bye..
If my cock can talk.. I belived ur chee bye can go KTV and sing ba hor..
So next time think before u talk kkz..
=but seriously sayin if u noe how to think, i belived pig could fly..
So u could fly too with such a body...
Try harder la kkz...
Cos i belived i wont see u flyin one day..Cos ppl will open their eyes big enough to see you..
Cos i belived the earth is round like ur belly..So what's goes ard CUM ard..
Don play play kkz...
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Beside those things...
There's still ppl who cheer mi up...
Ppl like:
Kelvin : thanks for the big bird pouch kkz baobao..hehe =real mi=
Kiro: for all the joke tat u make mi laugh.. =real mi=
Xiao roy: for ur joke entertainment and things.. =real mi=
Baobei: everything tat u have done for mi..=real mi=
Last of all...
MY NANDA jie
All the msg u had sent mi..
All the things u had told mi..
Finally u had really wake mi up..
Fully awake now..
Thank for the power ranger and many more..
You had put a smile on my face..
Lets put away all the past kkz..
You too must b happy..
If not i will page sailormoon..and u will know wat happen..muwahahaha..
Must cheer up too kkz..
*SMILE*

* =real mi= for wat i had say is all real..lol..dorts...

Till here le ba...
Hope things just get better...

JONATHAN LOVE HIS SHADOW

behind the mask Monday, April 07, 2008

>mirrored.

I WAS NEVER ONCE A HAPI BOY
EviL-ShaDow
15th Nov 1988
19yo
Mandai Hill Camp
Jonathanjame999@hotmail.com
About mi
I have selective memory loss
I have very bad short term memory
I am a "sudden arrival and departure
I am eccentric
I am impetuous
I love and desire for things that I cant have
I don’t know how to cherish things that I have
I have a big attitude problem
I live in confusion
I don’t know what I want in life
I have a split personality – as of always
My life is filled with confusion, blunders and scandals... I will have bad karma I know…
Love me for who i am, if not fuck off.
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You are The Hierophant

Divine Wisdom. Manifestation. Explanation. Teaching.

All things relating to education, patience, help from superiors.The Hierophant is often considered to be a Guardian Angel.

The Hierophant's purpose is to bring the spiritual down to Earth. Where the High Priestess between her two pillars deals with realms beyond this Earth, the Hierophant (or High Priest) deals with worldly problems. He is well suited to do this because he strives to create harmony and peace in the midst of a crisis. The Hierophant's only problem is that he can be stubborn and hidebound. At his best, he is wise and soothing, at his worst, he is an unbending traditionalist.

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FAster ORD

To find the real me
Learn to love myself before loving someone
Die before 30 - think i had live enough
If i were to die let me die with a tragic death -i know, i had done too much sins
Let me suffer once like how i did again
No more plastic and no more drama
There's no forever, so i just wish for a ever lasting relationships
To talk less & listen more
Never trust anyone whereby i don even trust myself
No more RealityShips
A message from you
Nothing gonna change my love for you
To have a chance to "mend" back
Slap me hard everytime when u see me, just to wake me up