when will my reflection show who im inside.

whats there inside me.

18 August 2007

I got hurt again..
Is not over relationship..
Is friends who got mi hurt..
Let me tell you "I REGRET KNOWING YOU AS A FRIEND"
Watever all you had said..Fuck Q, u think i gonna believed u anymore?
Yes im seriously bitching behind u..
Who cares u read it or u dont..
Just let me tell u, u're no different from others..Just another son of a bitch..
And thanks tat i had found out things from people..
Even if im doin those not right thing to find out wat i wan to know..
Who care.. Since u can be so bastard, why cant i..
Anyway i wont bother much too..

some friends just couldn't be bothered.
because they don't know how differently i am when i treated them.
i won't care much anymore. don't wana waste my time caring so much.
yet gain nothing out of it.
instead got kicked away.

some friends really cared.
but couldn't tolerate them being so proud.
although sometimes they really know alot.
but that doesn't give them a reason to be proud.

some friends i don't wana hurt again.
but they just keep coming back.
no, i'm gonna be that angel.
i'm a changed me anyway. duh -.-

some friends are just for me to kill time.
cos i'm a tool for them to kill time too.
but who cares anyway.
it's my life, i live it.

some friends like to boot lick so much.
maybe they mean no harm, i don't bother.
but it just makes me so sick.
so sick...

some friends i don't really meet often.
but yet the one i cared most.

some friends i thought could keep secrets.
yet let me find out they spreaded faster than anyone.
but i don't wana let this friend know.

If i could choose
I would rather, i had never know you all at all.

So which do u think you are?
or are you even mentioned?

The day when u leave mi 15th july 2007 hurts mi most deeply
I wish u were here with mi

JonathaN™

Labels: Once again i had seen the wrong group of people

behind the mask Saturday, August 18, 2007

>mirrored.

I WAS NEVER ONCE A HAPI BOY
EviL-ShaDow
15th Nov 1988
19yo
Mandai Hill Camp
Jonathanjame999@hotmail.com
About mi
I have selective memory loss
I have very bad short term memory
I am a "sudden arrival and departure
I am eccentric
I am impetuous
I love and desire for things that I cant have
I don’t know how to cherish things that I have
I have a big attitude problem
I live in confusion
I don’t know what I want in life
I have a split personality – as of always
My life is filled with confusion, blunders and scandals... I will have bad karma I know…
Love me for who i am, if not fuck off.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

You are The Hierophant

Divine Wisdom. Manifestation. Explanation. Teaching.

All things relating to education, patience, help from superiors.The Hierophant is often considered to be a Guardian Angel.

The Hierophant's purpose is to bring the spiritual down to Earth. Where the High Priestess between her two pillars deals with realms beyond this Earth, the Hierophant (or High Priest) deals with worldly problems. He is well suited to do this because he strives to create harmony and peace in the midst of a crisis. The Hierophant's only problem is that he can be stubborn and hidebound. At his best, he is wise and soothing, at his worst, he is an unbending traditionalist.

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To find the real me
Learn to love myself before loving someone
Die before 30 - think i had live enough
If i were to die let me die with a tragic death -i know, i had done too much sins
Let me suffer once like how i did again
No more plastic and no more drama
There's no forever, so i just wish for a ever lasting relationships
To talk less & listen more
Never trust anyone whereby i don even trust myself
No more RealityShips
A message from you
Nothing gonna change my love for you
To have a chance to "mend" back
Slap me hard everytime when u see me, just to wake me up