when will my reflection show who im inside.

whats there inside me.

15 August 2007

I really felt the stress now..
Everything was pushing against mi now..
Why izzit so..
I need help.. I really do need help..
Friday 17th aug, going for my NUH appointment..
Will know whether second operation is needed..
Wednesday 22nd aug, going for my MMI appointment..
Tuesday 21 aug to 27 aug Monday going for store-man course..
My staying in excuse ends at 09th sep sunday..
I really don't know what's going to happen next..
My life has not been good since the day you leave me..
What am i gonna do next..
Pretend nothing had happen at all..?
Wish i could..
But hopefully i can't..
All those things came on my mind everytime when i'm gonna slp..
And making mi cant sleep at all..
Trying to forget it..
But i cant.. I still have to face it the next day..
Where are all my friends?
When i needed u all most..
Where had u all gone to?
I had been searching high and low for u all..
But none appear..
I felt hurt once again..
The things in me are gonna make me crazy..
How i wish to have a call or sms from you again..
That's impossible as i know..
Do you know how much i really need you..
Pretending nothing had happened at all is the hardest things anyone could do..
And so im doing it..
I had to thanks all my camp-mate for cheering mi up when im in camp..
Yes, without fail they are always there to cheer mi up..
But when i start missing you, i cant find their jokes or wat so ever funny at all..
I think depression is soon lookin for mi once again..
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Btw was still wondering who's still reading my boring blog..
I don think anyone reads ba..
Btw if anyone do reads..
Mind tagging mi, so tat i know..
Cos i really feel like closing this blog le..
Cos it's bring mi too much pain...

The day when u leave mi 15th july 2007 hurts mi most deeply
I wish u were here with mi

JonathaN™

behind the mask Wednesday, August 15, 2007

>mirrored.

I WAS NEVER ONCE A HAPI BOY
EviL-ShaDow
15th Nov 1988
19yo
Mandai Hill Camp
Jonathanjame999@hotmail.com
About mi
I have selective memory loss
I have very bad short term memory
I am a "sudden arrival and departure
I am eccentric
I am impetuous
I love and desire for things that I cant have
I don’t know how to cherish things that I have
I have a big attitude problem
I live in confusion
I don’t know what I want in life
I have a split personality – as of always
My life is filled with confusion, blunders and scandals... I will have bad karma I know…
Love me for who i am, if not fuck off.
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You are The Hierophant

Divine Wisdom. Manifestation. Explanation. Teaching.

All things relating to education, patience, help from superiors.The Hierophant is often considered to be a Guardian Angel.

The Hierophant's purpose is to bring the spiritual down to Earth. Where the High Priestess between her two pillars deals with realms beyond this Earth, the Hierophant (or High Priest) deals with worldly problems. He is well suited to do this because he strives to create harmony and peace in the midst of a crisis. The Hierophant's only problem is that he can be stubborn and hidebound. At his best, he is wise and soothing, at his worst, he is an unbending traditionalist.

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FAster ORD

To find the real me
Learn to love myself before loving someone
Die before 30 - think i had live enough
If i were to die let me die with a tragic death -i know, i had done too much sins
Let me suffer once like how i did again
No more plastic and no more drama
There's no forever, so i just wish for a ever lasting relationships
To talk less & listen more
Never trust anyone whereby i don even trust myself
No more RealityShips
A message from you
Nothing gonna change my love for you
To have a chance to "mend" back
Slap me hard everytime when u see me, just to wake me up